News spread very fast when you keep your lips tight shut. It is such irony that people get to know it before you can even tell them. Well, I guess life is such that you don't even bother what it will come out to be and let nature take it's course.
Well, I guess by now, the cat is really out of the bag...no more hiding and running round about, I'm taking over the youth ministry mantleship. Its a mixed feeling. I felt my heart tugging and fretting over it ever since the bomb exploded in my face 2 weeks ago. I don't know if I'm ready for it. I tread this ground with trepidation.
The youth leaders had a meeting with the church leaders over this matter and I remember one of the church leader telling me this, "Well James, you do have a choice. You either take it up with fear and trembling or you rise up to the occassion." Am I ready to rise up to their expectations? Surely if I say I want to do His work, He will provide that necessary resources to build me up. Wah, so many things to think about and so little neurons to decipher what's next. It seems like a data-overload on my inconspicuous bean-shape brain.
But I'm determined to let God have the last say, even though people have the facts. I will always remember that in ministry, it is people first, then the place and then the programs.
God, I leave it all to you now!
